Blogging at work

Well, It's probably not the greatest idea I have ever come up with. But at least here I have some time.

Today is Kristin's birthday. Were the big 25 today. I got to thinking where I was at 25. I was living in my parents basement with a 3 year old. I was in a disaster of a relationship. Sadder than hell. Thank god for 30's.

Kate is getting ready for school. She's pretty excited. So am I, I have nothing but good hopes for her and the goals she has this year. It's my greatest wish that she does well. She has her friend sleeping over tomorrow.

I think for my day off, I might go to the movies by myself. I finished the book Eat,Pray,Love and it is now a movie. Perhaps that is what I will do with my day tomorrow. Wow time alone outside of work and the house... Holy shit! lol.

Robbie is Robbie. The same predictable most incredible man on the planet. God how I adore him.

Justin is the same old terror. Truth is he could be a terror. But he is my most amazing SUN. He is so much like his father lately I want to laugh out loud.

I have not heard from Keri since she left in February. That's typical of Keri. She is all she will ever need.

So that's your weekly update. I know, tres exciting huh?

you don't bring me flowers anymore

Rob's alarm went off today (Sunday) at 5am. He let the snooze go off 3 times. If he didn't plan on getting up until 5:30 shouldn't he have set it for then? After that I couldn't sleep. I laid awake for him to come back after showering and dressing for work to kiss me goodbye... I waited and waited but he never came. I got up to find him, he had already left.

Just yesterday I asked him if he thought the romance had left us? His reply was that he didn't think so, we had just been very busy. We've been busy for months now. Not even our holiday in June helped us. Now moments like the above are becoming a daily experience.

I guess I better get going on this inner happiness search I've been working on. It seems the only true love affair that will sustain me.

I absolutely adore him. I can't see myself with anyone else in my life. I know he feels the same way. Why is it then that we cant get into a habit of really loving each other anymore.

Does anyone out there have the answer? Oh, I forgot.. no one out there reads this stuff :)

Perhaps the answer will come to me at work today. At least I know what to expect from them and I'm good at what I do. God I sound like my mother.

Somethings gotta give.

Resolutions Revisited

I made some promises to myself this year. I gave myself a list of 10 tasks.

1. loose 5 lbs
2. write a journal
3. read 12 books
4. Save $1200.00
5. 12 months of Robbie
6. finish my scrap books.
7. Book a group holiday OR sell $1000.00 of commission.
8. take a course
9. find happiness
10. get a promotion

Tall order huh..... Well with August being more than halfway I thought we should revisit the tasks and see how were doing.

1. I was 104 when I made the resolution, now I am 97. Yes!

2. I began blogging because I didn't want anyone to find my paper journal and incriminate me. I have done all I can to remain anonymous and as I expected, no one reads this blog anyway. Any watchers here... I think not. So another YES!

3. read 12 books. Well I am really trying. I have found through this promise that I really like to read. It's time I need to do it. But I have read or began to read;
- Push
- Still Alice
- Change of heart
- Always looking up - begun
- The Guernsey and Potato peel pie society - begun
- Eat/Pray/Love - reading
- Sarah's Key - bought to read
- Pirate Latitudes - bought to read

So I have read 3, begun 2, reading 1 and bought 2. For a total of 8 if I can get through them all. No....

4. This is one of the worst. I have a savings bond thing at work that will give me a savings bond for a total of $1200.00 by the end of the year. However I think that's cheating. At this very moment I have saved 130.00 but I fear that will be spent shortly. No...

5. 12 months of Robbie, HA! Not even 1 month of Robbie sadly. I was planning on giving him a simple gift once a month for absolutely no reason. That didn't happen. No!

6. I completed 75% of one book. I have at least 4 including my wedding one to do. No!

7. My commission sales are around 500.00 dollars for this year. So I might make the goal.. but for now, No!

8. Take a course. I have taken MANY. I am so thankful I made this promise to myself. My fitness courses have sent me into a new profession that I thoroughly enjoy. A big YES!

9. finding happiness has sent me on a journey. I can honestly say that I have found happiness. Now I'm looking for Divine happiness. LOL. Another YES!

10. Get a promotion. Well I made Part -Time Coordinator. Do mini promotions count? I'm going to say that they do. Another and final YES!

So it's a 50/50 success split! But I aint done yet!

So I'm happy.

I am still a terrible summer blogger.

I have come a long way in my new years resolutions.

the first was to read 12 books this year. Well, I have managed to read 2 so far.
PUSH
CHANGE OF HEART

I have a few others that I have half read. I have a new one though that I am getting quite into. Called eat,pray,love and it's hard to put down. A friend once told me that books find the readers who need them most. It's no blog secret that my life's journey lately is the quest for happiness.

Work offered me a mini promotion. FINALLY. I was not thrilled about it initially, but it has a huge amount of promise. I am the part time volunteer coordinator. It is what it sounds like. Only 10-15 hours a week with the additional hours coming from the fitness centre and the membership desk. Part time coordinator is better than no time coordinator. So I'm happy. Finally :)

I am also finding more time to spend with Kate. Today as an example we spent from 9-2 (5 hours) in our P.J's watching movies and eating junk.

Rob has also begun smiling more and calling me beautiful again. So I'm happy. Finally :)

I had a birthday recently. I sucked it up and dropped hints to Rob and the kids all week. They got everything I asked for. It turned out to be a great day. So I'm happy. Finally. :)

My mother came by on the long weekend to see me for my birthday. She gave me too much. Flowers, face cream, a bracelet and $60.00. She confessed on the spot that the bracelet was a re-gift. She called a few days later to confess the face cream was too. Guilt got to her. So I'm happy. Finally. :)

I have been given a unique opportunity to focus on me for a while.

So I'm happy.

Finally.